Living in The Sun

A few days ago, at night, I was going to write a blog post, you know to continue my daily blogging challenge, but then I thought ' ah....the night sky wants me to look at her, I should probably stargazing for a bit then write my blog '. So I stand on the balcony outside my room and look at the sky, searching for inspiration.  Then I heard someone knocking on the house door, so I was busy looking at who was it and suddenly a huge white light flashing at the back of my head. Confused, I turn around and then felt that my feet lose the ground, I was captured by an unidentified flying object with a huge white flash, but weirdly, no one in my neighborhood really noticed it. It was night, so that could also contribute.  I don't remember anything until I arrived in this wide deserted place. It was not night anymore, it was the beautiful golden hour. I don't know how many days have passed since that night, and how many days I missed posting on my blog. I tried to run to find the

Day 345 of staying-at-home-without-ever-stepping-my-foot-outside-of-the-house's-gate It's not my house, but let's pretend this represents the looking-at-outside-from-inside-of-house When my friends asked me how can I do this, I always said ' It's easy, I have nothing to do outside anyway ' or ' I have many things I do at home ' or ' I hate hot weather anyway ' Lately, when they asked me how can I still do this, I text back ' because I'm crazy. I'm already crazy ' I think so.  I can't even understand myself for being so obsessed with my record. I don't even register it to world record or Indonesian record whatever (some of my friends did recommend me to just officially register this record with the official institution of record). But I also don't see the need for me to go outside and just break my record like that. So both ways it's kinda meaningless, but I put meaning in whatever I want to. Before, there was no ne

I'm not dead. Yet. Yes, I missed the daily blogging for three days. But I have a reason. 😐 I was having lots of interviews and testings with the users and they mostly are available at night, so I had no choice. And after having those sessions, I was just tired and go to sleep (not early, but spent more time watching videos, anyway). Classic. 👌 Is this challenge still going on? Yes. Just forget that those three skip days happened 😂 Anyway, have a great day!

Today I just spent my day laying on my bed and listening to songs for hours, then sleep, eat and then rewatch Day6 concert videos for hours. How many times should I say I miss life before corona? Well.. Then I listened to the latest song from one of my fav, Official Hige Dandism, titled ‘Universe’. This song apparently will be the ending song for the upcoming Doraemon movie. Judging from the lyrics..I can see that the movie’s story will be..great.  Anyway, the lyric is a masterpiece. I was just listening to it without much thinking going on, but the flow of the song hit me so hard that I felt the urge to check out the lyric. I read the english translation from the video, and...yeah. Top. “Happy or sad, which is it? Right or wrong, which is it? Looking at the elongated shade, rushed by the sunset, I was alone in the park, there is an answer sheet in the sandbox. Squatting down I kept looking for it even though I can’t see it..... Happy or sad, which is it? Right or wrong, which is it? L

Happy lunar new year!🐂 Finally, this is a chance to restart the resolutions we had from the new year last month lol. Maybe we forget about them already, so yeah another chance 😂 Anyway, may this year filled with good things and happiness and more courage to sail the ship of lyfe. 💆

When someone asks me how I become fond of the Korean language, I kind of confused because it is a long story. Well, not really. But it started since I was an elementary school kid. I bought cute notebooks for my class, and when I used them, I found that they have these really cute writings. There are circles, squares, lines, and it looks just so cutely organized. I was curious what was it. I was familiar with Japanese writings as I was a huge fan of anime and manga. And I've seen Chinese writings as well. After some time, I learned that it was Korean writings, make sense, lots of cute stationery is coming from Korea. I really like the shape and the structure of hangul, so at that time, I just copied what was written on the notebook many times. And that was my first encounter with the Korean language.  Then I learned Korean more properly. At that time, I was fascinated by the story of the hangul invention, and how each letter is well thought of. So I just fell for it deeper.  Fast f

I was listening to the radio that I listen to every night, and this song came out. So I just get reminded of this story from 2012. So 8 years ago when this song came out, I really really like it, and at that time, Beast was my favorite boy group and I especially love Yoseob's voice. So when the company announced a duet singing competition and they will give a lunch together with the singer as the prize for the winner, I was ecstatic. Because luckily, I was staying in Korea at that time as an exchange student.  I was so excited, but I can't really sing and the high notes in the song are just kicking through the roof, so high. But I was determined. That was a chance that could make my stay in Korea more fun. Definitely, I thought.  So I guessed I was up for the challenge, and just start practicing my singing so diligently. I memorized all the lyrics, fixed my pronunciation and just overall tried my best.   But the deadline was near, so I recorded myself at night after class, and

So there is this playlist that I enjoy when I really really need instant energy. Listening to these songs just can lift up my mood and energy and get me ready for the hard stuff. I usually listen to this before I need to finish a deadline, or when I'm just feeling lethargic at work but need to get back to work mode soon. The songs I picked have similarities in the music vibe, I don't know what to call it, but the music has this kind of fun but kind of 'too much' and also kind of 'oldie vibe' as well, anyway. You'll know when you listen to them. This kind of sound just boosts my energy like that.  Puss (Prod. by Rhymer) by Jimin feat. Iron Origin of species by Cho PD, Verbal Jint feat. Swings Horangnabi by Boi B feat. Gill & Rythm Power Dang Dang Dang by Supreme team DND by Rythm Power MSG by Dynamic Duo feat. Penomeco Come Here by Masta Wu feat. Bobby & Dok2

In my whole life, I think there are two remarkable foods that change my whole perspective of food. Well, it is kind of an exaggeration, but these two foods give me a new perspective on the way food is perceived. It is just like how avocado is perceived differently on how to serve it. In Indonesia, we often use avocado as a dessert ingredient. We make avocado juice with lots of milk, and we eat avocado with condensed milk or chocolate, and in general, avocado is just a food that is perceived to be served sweetly. But when my Spanish friend saw that, she was shocked because she eats avocado with salt and pepper, and generally, avocado is being served as a salty cuisine for her.  Photo by Conscious Design on Unsplash So, just similar to that, these two foods that I encountered broaden my view about the food serving. The first one is eggplant with honey or called Berenjenas con Miel in Spain. I tried this food on my trip to southern Spain. I was looking at the menu in one restaurant and

One of my favorite quotes is coming from the Philosophy of Ralph Waldo Emerson, which talks about the art of trusting one's self.  “If all we can know and experience is our self, how can any life be lived fully, if one denies themselves before even trying?   If we hide or hinder ourselves out of the fear of rejection from others, are we not, in essence, rejecting our own self first; the only person we truly and inescapably have to live with?”  It reminds me to accept myself fully and the experience I have and to accept the change that follows, whether in things around me or a change in myself. Also to really realize what's truly important for me. The essence of this matter is also pictured through this one song, that I really love from the bottom of my heart, which is 'Cover' by Day6. The song talks about covering oneself because of fear of rejection and disappointment from other people. When actually, we should accept ourselves and live true to ourselves.  But yeah we

  Photo by Kate Torline on Unsplash “Hi! Long time no see!” “Wow hi! Yes, it’s been a long time, how have you been?” “Great! I’ve been into hiking, I hiked a mo-“ “Oh yea I know, I saw that on your Instagram, wow that’s cool” “Yea it’s pretty fun. I met a fellow hiker fro-“ “From China, right? Isn’t that crazy how many mountains she hiked?” “Oh, how do you know? Oh...yea I posted on Instagram” “Yes on your caption” “Yea..” “...” “How was your sister? I heard she was having a hard time?” “Huh? What do you mean?” “Oh well, I saw it on Instagram, the close friends thingy, she was telling that she be—“ “Ooooh, well, I see, Uhm yeah I guess haha” “Yep..” *imaginary conversation inspired by reading a bunch of digital addiction books and talking to my sisters

As you might have read from yesterday's post, I'm just a really competitive person for the most trivial things. It's like that for as long as I remember.  Photo by Tim Gouw on Unsplash Me and my siblings used to compete for the weirdest stuff.  To be the first person to open the house door after arriving home To be the first person to enter the house To be the first person who eats the snack when it is first opened. To be the first person who finish eating To be the first person who touch something (if there is something new or just things we talked about) and so on.  At school, I also just can't throw away that habit. I will be that person who writes really really fast so I can be the first one who finish writing notes and I will shout 'DONE!' 💀 Or finish eating my lunch first.  At work, I'm still doing it lol. If we have something to do, like filling in a survey or something, I will fill it in first and then said 'DONE!'. Or if we have a quiz or

In this pandemic, I realized that a lot of things were blessings in my life, and that actually, small little things in life are what count in our life anyway.  Riding public transportation freely  Walking outside freely  Going to the hospital when I need it Chatting with friends comfortably, whenever wherever Buying street food freely Planning for a trip I guess more than 5. This is just what tops my mind right now. More than 6 if I let myself think about it for more than a minute. Thankfully I can still do these things freely in my dream. It's a good thing that my dream's 'normal life' is still a world without this virus life. I dreamed about corona-themed life less than 3 times I guess.  And the dreams were all about me going out freely to do something and at the end of it I was worried about breaking my record of staying home 😂 I was like " eh, why did I go out? does this mean I failed in continuing my record of staying at home the longest??? "  Then I wok

Time is getting shorter I guess. Tomorrow it will be Friday already, whew, wow...a week just flew by like that.  Today, nothing big happened. I didn't think much as well. Spent my day mostly on work discussions. A colleague resigned today so we had a farewell online meeting. and then eat. eat. and eat. Oh, I ate instant noodles after quite some time, I don't remember. But I didn't cook it. Just put the hard instant noodles on a plate and poured condensed milk on it. Then I ate it while watching unsolved mysterious case videos on Youtube. The instant noodles will be expired by this month, so I ate two packs. I'm full now so I can't think much. Or I just don't think much in general, idk.  Actually last night I spent a whole night awake watching a series of trials from a murder case. I couldn't stop watching them because I wanted to know the whole thing. So I watched the whole trials that held on different days and saw all the witnesses' testimony and the f

Not to sound too ((inspirationally)) vibe, but this is something that I've been thinking about. I think the saying 'Never give up' somehow makes us feel shame to give up when we feel like we want to give up. Not only that particular saying but also the way it is portrayed in the society that giving up is for losers.  Photo by Noah Silliman on Unsplash I actually think it is okay to give up . That means we already did our best and acknowledged all of our efforts, but despite all that, things are not going our way, so it is time to give it up.  Especially when we pursue a goal that is hard to reach in our reality, and when pursuing that makes us unhappy, I think it is worth giving it up. If pursuing the goal makes us unhappy, then what is the point? For me, as cliche as it sounds, life is a journey, and what we do on this journey should make us happy .  We probably will spend most of our time in the journey, than in the destination/goal itself. Just as an example, it is lik

A team of ducks heading back to work after spending the break time chilling under a tree. "let's go back to work.." "ugh...alright" "you know man, if not for the money I won't take this job" "Yeah well you won't be able to work if not here" "Ha! jokes on me and my life" "Uhm..how many sticks do I need to collect today, ugh I have so many things to do" "don't say that in my face, I need to file every single stick you collected into the right folder according to size, color, and...." "oh shut up" "you shut up" "If I don't need to work, I will spend my whole time chilling under the tree, you know" "Well you can do it now" "I need to eat tho" "you can get food from the pond, come on" "well then I don't have any place to sleep" "you sleep on the straw nest, bro" "oh well....that's right" "Why do you w

A few weeks ago while organizing my notes, I found a letter. A will from me to everyone, written on 2007 Photo by Álvaro Serrano on Unsplash The letter has the 'usual' greetings to the people in my life, and how I regret things I do, how I ask for forgiveness from the people I disappoint...and so on Come to think of it, it's not the only 'will' I wrote actually. Somehow once in some years I just have moments when I thought I was going to die, and I just write a letter, just in case I leave some words I want to say unsaid.  As a person, I think I have too many thoughts about death in my daily life. I always picture Final Destination scenarios in daily life, lol, you know, uhm the fan that will fall of from its motor and cut my neck or an invisible sharp thread cut me when I ride a motorbike, or a roller coaster lose the grip from its rail and throw me to the air and stabbed by a sharp tree, or falling in the bathroom and hit my eyes to the toothbrush then slipped an